To Anneke Lucas ( A survivor of satanic ritual abuse)

by Matty B. Duran

 Anneke, I want the Blood of Jesus for you, for you to know Jesus as Lord and Savior.

Anneke's friend Wouter died over 50 years ago, a 7 year old boy who was murdered at the hands of devil worshipers in front of Anneke when she was only 9 years old. I don't know how long she knew him, but he was also a child who had been abducted or given to this satanic network. But in his case, he was sacrificed, and Anneke was raped.

I can't imagine having such a grotesque memory. Anneke's mind was traumatized for years, her memories a tapestry of continuous violation. Anneke, began vividly remembering Wouter in the 1990's, it seems she was finally ready to grieve him.

While Anneke mourned Wouter, she remembered the deeply painful memory of trying to hold onto him to protect him. She begged the perpetrator to sacrifice her instead of Wouter. The perpetrator scorned her impassioned plea for Wouter as the handlers ripped him from her mother's embrace.

I cannot wrap my heart around such a monstrous moment, of having another human being, a child ripped from another child. It is heart wrenching to even visualize this. It stabs the senses to a state of numbness.

The same man who ripped Wouter away raped Anneke. She writes of her attachment to the man who raped her, despite seeing Wouter's butchered body. Anneke identifies with her rapist as she was trained to. I believe she was trained to excuse her rapists and the murderer of the child Wouter. An abused person, especially a child deeply attaches to the abuser, not by choice but my necessity.

In an interview she testifies that she was trained through torture. She suffered the horrific effects of mind control.

She watched Wouter being murdered while she was bring raped. Anneke believes the man who raped her and had Wouter murdered as well as others who committed atrocities against her over the five and half years of her enslavement to the satanic network were damaged. In interviews on podcasts and in her writings she believes the men who raped her were deeply wounded as children themselves. She writes in her blog that the men who raped her still maintained a wounded part of themselves that caused them to perpetrate this great evil. Furthermore, while she condemns the heinous actions committed by these men, she excuses the men who raped and murdered as being children themselves, as being broken and insecure.

Despite all Anneke went through from the ages of 6-11, she isn't a believer; she isn't a Christian. She follow something called, "Self-Realization Fellowship" which she has claimed as her path in life. It is based on the teachings of a now deceased Indian man, Paramahansa Yogananda. Part of her beliefs include yoga and meditation, which Christians consider as satanic. She accepts Christ as a guru, an enlightened teacher, but not as Savior and not as Lord.

What confounds me is that she seems to be healed and claims to be healed without Jesus, without truly knowing Him as Lord and Savior, without believing in His Shed Blood as the atonement for our sins.

Usually when a person goes through as much trauma as she has gone through, they end up with multiple personalities, or become cutters, or commit suicide. But she has not succumbed to any of these things, at least she never mentioned herself to be a cutter.

I pray for her every day for God to save her, for Anneke to give God the glory for her survival. After all she is only alive because of Jesus. Children in the sex trade do not last more than 2 years. She lasted for 5 years, through rape and torture, even mind control. She herself said she was raped a total of

1, 716 hours before the age of 12. Grown women are traumatized over being raped even once in their lifetime. Her remarkable survival story is due to Christ and Christ alone, yet she does not thank Him nor give Him the glory for her life. She only acknowledges Jesus as an enlightened teacher.

I don't understand how a person can go through so much trauma and not need Jesus. She claims to be at peace, and she says she has forgiven all of the men who demonically abused her. Only Christ can forgive such brutality. True forgiveness comes only from Jesus.

Anneke said that while she respects Christians, she doesn't like that Christians claim to be the only way. But this is the whole point of Christianity, Jesus is the only way, and she seemingly rejects it, which means she rejects Jesus.

In her experience in the satanic network, she has written she had moments when she felt a benign presence, except when Wouter was horrendously murdered. She couldn't remember Wouter's name for many years and finally a still small voice said, "Wouter." "His name was Wouter."

God never forgot Wouter. God doesn't forget anyone. I believe Wouter is in Heaven with Jesus, as he was only 7 years old when he was tortured and murdered.

As a teenager in the 1980's, the Holocaust is a deep part of me, having connected me to the horrors of the Concentration camps through movies and books. Anneke has become part of my psyche as well, listening to her describe her torment and suffering having been spiritually destroyed as a child by the worst evil.

While I rejoice that she seems to have peace and been healed I wonder has she truly been healed without Jesus? I don't want to doubt her healing process or the progress she believes she has made, it makes me seem arrogant. She believes she is whole and my heart wants this to be so. I grieve what she has gone through, the brutality of what sin actually is in its truest form.

But what is her hope? Who is her hope? I know she has a heart to help other survivors who have gone through satanic ritual abuse like herself. She has an empathy for women in particular, a desire for women who have suffered this kind of abuse at such a young age to find healing as well. Where is this healing coming from? Where does it come from? Where has her strength come from? Her resilience to want to live when so many others have given up and committed suicide.

Year ago I saw another survivor of satanic ritual abuse, but this survivor was younger. She was an Australian teenager, and she ended up taking her own life. I noticed her eyes were visibly dead, they had a deadened expression, there was no light, nothing was there but a destroyed human being.

Anneke is different, although Anneke is much older than this Australian girl was. Anneke is now 61, as she experienced her trauma in the early 70's. She states at the end of her blog piece, "The Purpose of Grief" is to see that life is eternal and the benign forces of God and Christ can guide us out of our delusional states

I believe grief has this greatest purpose to reconcile us to our God and Father through Jesus Christ. It is only through Christ's shed blood who is the Lamb of God, the sacrifice made on behalf of the world to save us, cleanse us and deliver us from our sins. It is to be made holy, to know Him and for Him to reside in us through His Holy Spirit, the Spirit of Christ. We cannot overcome grief or pain by ourselves or truly be transformed and transcend a state of grief without Jesus.

Anneke is searching and insists that her spirituality is enough to connect her to God as she calls Him the benign force. She believes that Christ is someone to look to only for guidance, but not Salvation.

Although she will accuse me of judging her if she ever reads this, she has missed the point of the intense suffering she endured and the grief her soul continues to suffer as she remembers her friend Wouter's murder as a child. This wound will never really heal without Jesus. She can call me dogmatic, but dogma is truth and has been misconstrued over the centuries of its true intent because of false teachers and prophets.

I don't minimize Anneke's pain, but I cannot agree with her as to the source of who Jesus Christ is. Jesus is not a benevolent teacher despite what she believes. He is the Son of God who came and gave His life as a ransom for all, to save us from the wrath of God, to forgive us of our sins, to give us eternal life and to deliver us from the evil one of this world.

Satan can transform himself into an angel of light and so can his teachers and disciples. Satan can be disgustingly evil and despicable, or he can reveal himself to be a source of false revelation and knowledge, a path so to speak, a different way to enlightenment.

Many use spirituality and religion as a path to Heaven, but without knowing Jesus as Savior and Lord, it is a false path that will only lead to as God says in His Word, "hell."

My heart breaks as many, including Anneke, have already been tormented by demons whose ultimate residence will be hell. God said in His Word He created hell for the devil and his angels. His Word reveals that God does not desire anyone to perish but that all might be saved.

This is the calling of Christians to preach the Gospel to the broken hearted like Anneke, to preach of Christ's love through The Cross. He died to save us from the wrath that awaits every unbeliever.

I don't believe Anneke understands that the world is under the judgement and wrath of holy God. She doesn't understand that sin must be punished and is punishable by an eternity in hell.

In this life the rich and the powerful get away without any consequences, as they are allowed to rule. Those who perpetrated the rape and murder of children have gotten away without punishment in their lifetimes. But they will not escape the wrath of God for what they have done to Anneke and millions of other children. Almighty God will hold every last one them accountable.

But whoever causes one of these little ones who believe in Me, to stumble it would be better for him if a millstone were hung around his neck, and he were drowned in the depth of the sea.

(Matthew 18:6)

"Come to Me all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will you give you rest.

Take My yoke upon you and learn from ME, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you

will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light."

(Matthew 11:28-30)