Red Bubble/2009-2015

(My first Red Bubble art site avatar. 2009)

In the summer of July 2009, I began to write on the internet on an art site called Red Bubble. Daddy started on Red Bubble in April he was the one told me about this art site, his avatar was Reynaldo. This was exciting for me I had only shared my writings with only a handful of people. I thought this was going to be my big break as a writer.

Writing on Red Bubble started out for my glory, but God will not share His Glory with another, and slowly my writings and my profile page began to change, without my realizing it. I can honestly write it is my greatest joy writing for The Lord Jesus Christ.

The Lord made it made easier for me by giving me a Christian friend for a season here on Red Bubble from the United Kingdom.

I had been compelled to quit Red Bubble in the beginning. My comments were non-existent. I told myself that I would not write anymore if I could not write for God. So, I stopped writing. It was then that The Lord gave me the Poem, “Make me a Garment of Praise.” That poem was featured for the month of May in 2010 in For the Love of Jesus group. I was also the featured artist For the Love of Jesus group.

One day there were a lot of comments by an artist ellessdee on my writings. I wrote to thank him, and he wrote me a long bubble mail saying he wanted to be friends. His name was Lee Davey. We wrote every day to each other for a month, and then we begin to call one another.

In the beginning, I began to get the wrong idea about this man. He told me about very intimate details in his life, and I thought it meant he liked me romantically. But I was to discover he had a very close female friend back in England who was only 28. I was already a jaded 45 year old. Lee and I had become face book friends. I also became face book friends with his friend Danielle. She was beautiful, and I could feel the jealousy rise up inside of me every time we spoke. He swore to me that he was not interested in her that way, that they were both alcoholics at one time and were delivered from it at the same time. Suffice to say the phone calls became heated on both ends he would cuss at me, and yell at me from across the Atlantic. At first, he encouraged me not to see Brouwer, later it seemed he almost demanded it. I don’t know if this is the real reason, or part of the reason I dropped Brouwer from my life. But I can write that I miss nothing about him.

This was all due to The Loving kindness of Jesus Christ that finally took him away. I thank him for all of the people he took away that hurt me. I had believed they were helping, but the cuts were evidence that they weren’t.

I would get off of the phone in tears with this friend from England. He stopped writing me as often. I stopped calling. I wrote him one final time, and he wrote back saying, “He wanted nothing to do with me.” I was very hurt by this. I used to pray to my Father, and asked Him to let me finally stay with someone. Even though he was from England I knew nothing was impossible with God. My momma and my sister Moe did not want me to get hurt again; they didn’t want to see me get my hopes up. Momma told me in the blunt way she does, that I wasn’t being realistic. But, I was going to trust in God. When it all blew up in my face, I wasn’t angry with God this time. I accepted the fact, that I wasn’t meant to be married.

I continued writing for a few years after my daddy died. But Red Bubble removed my writings. They became an art site.

“My Grace is Sufficient for you. My Strength is made perfect in weakness.”

(2 Corinthians 12:9)