“Be Holy For I Am Holy”/2010

By 2010, The Lord was cleansing and healing the old wounds. God was using Mary, my Christian therapist to heal me. She was very understanding and kind where Emma was concerned. The Lord did another thing for us. Emma hated working with her last therapist it was hard terminating the relationship we had with The Heritage, County Mental Health for children. Because of her IEP, the directors of Heritage and the administrators of the school especially were unwilling to release her from her treatment there.

Emma wasn’t connecting to any of the therapists after leaving The Day Treatment Program at Heritage.

It was The Grace of Jesus Christ, that Mary was able to take Emma as a client. When I asked her if she could see Emma, she told me she was unable to take any more clients at the time. The fact that she was able to, without it being a conflict of interest since I was her client too is to the Glory of God. Mary always says, “It is a God thing.”

The Lord gave her to talk to me. She was everything Scott was not.

The Almighty used Mary to get Emma into a Charter School. The administrators and teachers, the school psychologist in particular made it exceedingly difficult for Emma to be extricated from the Fresno Unified School District. For years I had tried, but in vain. It wasn’t time. God does things in His Timing and not ours. Over the many arduous years there had been many IEPS, meetings, and anguish to no avail. It seemed certain obstacles were now being supernaturally removed.

In 2010, my sister Moe introduced me to a preacher on the inter-net named Paul Washer. He was to give us deeper teaching into the Glory of God.

The computer age has made many things easier. I didn’t have to listen to sermons with antiquated headphones, with all of the static that it comes with, as 99.9 didn’t always come through clearly. The Word was like a banquet on the Inter-net provided one wanted to be fed. I felt the inter-net could be used for The Glory of God, since it was He that created it.

More and More, I wanted The Glory of God. More and More, I cried out for His Holiness. More and More The Holy Spirit compelled me to sing Praises to His Glory. More and More all i wanted to do was write about Jesus, my Lord. i handed the last of my razors to Jesus. When The Holy Spirit told me, and I heard Him this time,

“You are cutting the Precious Flesh of The Savior Jesus.” I did more than weep, the scars are the only evidence, that i had ever been a cutter, God forgave me."

I started to take things out of the house, starting in 2009. Harry Potter DVD’s, Supernatural DVD’s, Underworld DVD’s, I had bought Emma over the years. The Holy Spirit began to reveal to me, that Holiness was profound in its completeness. There was to be a separation of the people of God, as we are consecrated to Him.

A sweep of the heart was to be made, as well as a sweep of the house. I gave away tee-shirts of Twilight I had bought for Emma at Hot Topics. The Holy Spirit said vampires did not honor God. He explained to me it wasn’t legalism, but Holiness.

God said, “BE HOLY FOR I AM HOLY!” (1Peter 1:16)

The Holy Spirit told me that The Church was resisting the Holiness of God. I cried out to be cleansed in The Holy Fires of Jesus Christ. I loved singing Praises to Jesus with the Keith Green CD’s. The Lord used His servant Keith Green to sing His Praises while helping the homeless in the 70’s. He was killed in a small plane accident with his two small children in 1982 at the age of 28.

Two of his songs connect me so profoundly to my Lord Jesus Christ, “Create in me a clean heart”, and “Make my life a prayer to you.” In the last couple of years, in particular The Holy Spirit gave me the gift of Praise, because i enjoy Praising more than anything, He gives me so much Joy in lifting up Praise to My Savior Jesus Christ.

It was a gift I had prayed for. I knew people who Praised God with a sincere heart, Praise just naturally came forth from their hearts through their lips. I wanted the Fruit of Praise.

If we could all give God praise, like the lady who broke open her alabaster box for The Lord Jesus. The song Alabaster Box is all i want to give to Him, My Lord Jesus who has done everything for me.

“I want to love how You Love.” Jesus, i must decrease, oh but Beautiful Lord, You must increase in this world that is under Your Justice, and under Your Judgment.” Oh, but in this hour Lord there is still so much of Your Mercy."

I’ve been forgiven of so much. That is why I Love You Lord Jesus so much. Oh Master, even now come unto me. Even now unworthy as i am. You are all my Righteousness, my Joy, my Love, my Hope, my Glory. There is no Glory without you. You are the Glory of me, You are The Glory of this house, You are the Glory of this world, you are the Glory of this vessel."

“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away, behold all things have become new." (2 Corinthians 5:17)

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